For Fatalistic Tendency, Dhaka, Bangladesh-based documentary photographer Tushikur Rahman visualizes his own depression through scenes of violence and confusion. In his unnerving, claustrophobic frames, he confronts the painful suicidal impulses brought on by insomnia and anxiety attacks, using his camera as a means of recording a personal diary and intimate confessional.
For Rahman, who has photographed major catastrophes including the 2013 collapse of Bangladesh’s Rana Plaza and the nation’s 2010 tiger killings, Fatalistic Tendency was in some ways the most difficult of his projects, forcing him to imagine some of his deepest fears and most private desires. Here, subjective, personal meanings disintegrate into visceral frissons of violent sensation, as if all the universe were contained within a single nightmarish instant between wakefulness and sleep.
All images © Tushikur Rahman